A grudge holder..

So, it's not NYE yet, but I already have a resolution-

To stop being such a grudge holder. >.<

This I think will be very very hard. It's very easy to write people off, and for me its been quite a good defense mechanism. That's how my emotional 'system' works- defense defense defense. There's only one path that this will lead to later in life- utter loneliness. A desolate emotional landscape where nothing lives. In that case I might as well be dead in the earth if I am already dead in the heart.

That ain't cool, that's not where I want to be.