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Sometimes the best thing you can do for a friend is just to be there, and be supportive. I never really have a chance to do this very often since most of my friends are hardcunts but I was in that position about a week or two ago. I'm glad that I could be relied on for that friend when she really needed it, since I know how it feels to be so utterly isolated.

I'm still not close to my family and I don't think that I ever will be. Is the answer to be found in the relationships that I have with my friends and with May? Is it found in trying to repair something that's been broken for the past 15years or more? Hmmmmz

Woah slacker

So what's happened lately..

On Wednesday it is the 1month anniversary of the burgeoning love between May and I. It's been fantastic, and it's also been very challenging actually. To tell the truth I have been quite horrible in relationships due to an overwhelming cynicism about the other person in all of my life. It's only been with this particular girl, this one person where I have been able to open up and show my real feelings. I don't know what it is about her that makes me do this, but there is something about the two of us that is really special and I don't know how to describe it. Other people can ask me, or I can ask myself, or she can ask me. But I guess basically the easiest way to say it is that I trust her implicitly, always have and I feel like there is a need to be there beside her and to comfort her and to make her happy. I don't get so many new feelings with any other girl, and I don't want to share myself with any other girl. It's young love and it's very early stages but it's here finally.

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On March 26th I am competing in the QLD heats for the AASCA ABC (australasian specialty coffee association's australian barista championship). What a mouthful bah. No more piss-farting around, people are trusting me enough to send me to represent their cafe. It's crunch time and I am going to kick some ass come Sunday.

woah

A while ago I went down to visit my mum because I hadn't seen her in quite a long time. We just had lunch together sharing the table with a young couple up from Byron Bay and also an old prune Chinese couple. Afterwards we went back to her place and I chilled out on the couch with the airconditioning, being fed various grapes and apples and I found it to be entirely relaxing. I really need to go down to see my mum some more.

I also hinted to her about May, and her response was that it's quite amazing that I have found someone who has domesticated me so fast. Just about 2 months ago, I was there telling another friend that I don't see myself getting sucked into any type of relationship. That wasn't me. Along came May, and she changed everything. If I could count the thousands of small things about her that make me so happy I would. But when put on the spot like that I tend to have a complete mind blank. She's starting to believe that I don't like her, or that I am playing her since I keep so much so close to my heart, but that's the way that I have always been and it's one of those things that I will always have to work on. It's harder than I thought to just open my heart..

We're now rapidly approaching the first month that my new job cibo has been opened. It's been a bit up and down lately. We're coming up to a staff meeting this Sunday and a fair few issues will be fleshed out. Most particularly, the structure of our work-teams and people's areas of responsibilities will be determined. With more people being elevated to shift supervisor/team leader positions etc, we'll probably see most of this stuff being fixed. It's not exactly the type of business where the bosses don't care. So things will be set in motion and maybe some deadwood cut adrift.

Something is in the air

On Saturday we had a record day at the shop. I can't believe that it's been so crazy, we have so many customers that we are running out of stock very quickly, and also running out of dine-in glassware etc. crazy crazy crazy, but it was quite a lot of fun to tell the truth. Don't put me on when it's boring goddamnit :)

I also worked the Sunday morning shift, which went pretty slowly until the rain cleared up and everyone came at once. A glitch in the roster system left us down one person, and it was a bit fucked up but I had fun nonetheless. It's not such a big problem and I really like this job since it's also where I've met my beautiful May.. speaking of which.

I had dinner with her at the Spanish Tapas Bar in Fortitude Valley. It was like a trip to her El-Salvadorean auntie's kitchen. The food was really really nice, and the service was a bit stunted at first but they opened up to us as the night progressed. I was really happy with the food, it was so very delicious. We sat, the romantic couple in the corner, and I got a bit breathless when I sat so close and she looked at me. How did I ever get so lucky?

Nothing much to report at the moment

..except to say that I am extraodinarily happy. More happy than I have been in the last 2 years. Something that was dull and dead for over two years has been resonating ever since I started working at cibo. I never expected anything to occur, but it has now. Magical, wonderful, extraodinary.

Shit, my room hasn't been this clean in about 9 months

ACHOO...

damned hayfever.